Unwritten

So, I'm back from Lebanon. I flew in last Tuesday evening and was reunited with the family for a brief couple of days until I moved back up to Sherman for RA training.

It was a phenomenal trip. Words cannot describe all the things I did and saw and experienced. The best experiences were the ones I thought I would never take...the ones that involved a bit of risk and deception and unconventional tactics. But all that aside, it was also a very, very difficult trip. It was a challenge to my self-confidence but at the same time I have never felt this much willpower in my life. Ambition is a word that had less strong of meaning before this summer. I am Lebanese and saw a side of Lebanon I had never knew existed.

Since I didn't get internet much while I was there, I wrote everyday in Microsoft Word. I'll be posting all those entries on my blog eventually.

The thing I cannot put in words though is how I feel right now. While I was in Lebanon there was a lot that I saw and could act upon and I felt empowered because I was physically present. Here, I am isolated from all the things and projects I was working on. Who am I to say what to do and when to do it to people my senior who are overseas and have been running this orphanage (inefficiently) for years. I know what direction to take it just seems like I'm stuck in place for now.

More later...I have to head back to RA training.

Asil